Alcohol

You broke my heart
You ruined my name
I am alone because of the reaction you produce.
People laugh, they stare
All the while I pretend not to care.
And you let me ignore my battle
Drown out all my pain
Let me avoid the awful beauty.
Those are things I cannot change.
But still you made me love you
through the smiles and the tears.
And of course I had to love you,
What else was there to do?
You let me have my freedom
Now I'm shackled here alone
I try to break the bonds.
Still I stand here screaming,
"I cant undo whats been done"
You get to be oblivious
A gift I'll never share
Instead I stand defensive and constantly aware.
I fight the need I feel for you
The feeling you arise.
I'm better off without you,
I shout through tear filled eyes.